For those of you who were present at my trial and for those of you who listened to it at home, I want to make a clarification and an apology.
During my testimony I read my email exchange with D.A. Daniel Roisman from two years ago. In that email I said something like: “The same D.A. who is covering up the satanic cult now wants to put me in jail for three years for saying “I love you” in an email.”
I want to clarify that in my email to D.A. Roisman I was talking about Nancy O’Maley (The main D.A.) and not about deputy D.A. Lori Mullins who is in charge of my case now. Ms Lori Mullins is a beautiful person. I can’t imagine her being involved in a cover up of ritualistic abuse. Ms Mullins was assigned to my case just a few months ago which was a real blessing. She replaced my old D.A. Brian Owens who shamelessly lied at all my bail hearings to make sure that i cant get out of jail.
I also want to apologise to everyone who was present at my trial, who heard it online and who read my open letter to Mr Albeck two years ago when it was first public.
APOLOGY FOR OPEN LETTER TO MR ALBECK
About 2 years ago i wrote an open letter to Mr Albeck who was the vice-principal of my son Daniel’s middle school at the time. I have recently realized how hurtful and how damaging some parts of this letter are. I want to express how i feel about this letter now. I’m only going to apologize for the parts that i feel remorse about at the present moment. In the future i might feel remorse about more part of this letter – or not But as of right now i have not forgiven Mr Albeck for all the damage that he has done to me, to my children and to other people who are devastated without my help, like my street kids. Some day i will do the forgiveness process and forgive him. but that’s in the future.
With out further due, here’s my open letter to Mr Albeck. I’m publishing it here in full. My recent comments are indented. The only thig that has been changed is the name of the student who is discussed in this letter.
I have always known that you are an oppressor and that you abuse your power. But what happened a week ago blew away everything I had ever heard about you.
I came to school and asked to talk to you. I told you about Pedro’s mother making a bunch of false accusations about me – not the first time it happened. I have told you in the past how our conflict with her began – we gave her a puppy and took it back 2 days later because we realized we wouldn’t be able to keep the one we had left because it was more aggressive. Pedro’s mother was acting in very nasty punishing ways in response, and ever since then she has been determined to destroy me and my kids. She made an illegal recording and then distorted everything that was in it and tried to put me in jail and get all my kids taken away from me. All because I took the puppy back and refused to kiss her ass afterwards.
I told you that Pedro’s mother tortured our puppy. I told you that he was the chillest dog ever before we gave him to her. Upon his return he got sick and then started having violent fits of rage attacking and biting his brothers and even us. It’s been 6 months and it still continues. He bit me really hard 2 weeks ago while sleeping and cuddling with me. According to Leo Pedro’s mother went through 3 dogs in the past year.
It’s a well known fact that serial killers start by torturing small animals.
I also told you that Pedro cut himself numerous times while in her custody. I told you that she separated him from his father, and that caused him to put a very big and deep cut on his arm.
You knew all of this. I told you that Raven is accusing me of sending Pedro sexual emails which is 100% bull shit.
I have also sent you my video about my work with street kids in Mexico at least a month ago:
You know full well: I am not the kind of a person that would ever harm anyone, especially a child.
Yet you proceeded to wage a which hunt on me. I bet you were motivated by jealousy.
You were spying on your students as you always do (as I found out recently). You saw that Pedro had a letter in his hand and you forced him to give it to you. He asked you what was in it and you refused to even let him read it.
Yes, it was my letter that I wrote to him because I was worried about him cutting himself or worse. I told you that he has feelings for me, you knew it full well.
So I have a question for you and for everyone at Willard Prison Complex. I have a question for everyone who supports and upholds public humiliation and the fascist regime that is blossoming in America today thanks to people like you.
What moral right did you have to steal and then to read my letter that wasn’t addressed to you? What right did you have to rape Pedro’s soul and my soul?
You didn’t stop there. You proceeded to throw me out of school (I was waiting for Ms Lenz to help me finish some paperwork for Six Flags and was helping her while waiting). You showed up with 2 security guards. You could have at least asked me to leave first, and if I didn’t comply you could have come back with security guards. But that way it would have been a lot less fun for you. You wouldn’t have been able to get off nearly as hard.
You didn’t stop there. You called the cops, got Pedro’s torturer mother involved and filed a restraining order against me. By the way, every single accusation listed in the restraining order is a bold face lie. Every single one without exception. Pedro’s mother had to make up lies because there is nothing illegal about having feelings, nothing illegal about expressing them and even dating a minor is perfectly legal as long as there is no sex. I have never broken the law, not even close.
Raven wrote that Pedro doesn’t want to receive any communication from me. Yet Pedro has never told me nor emailed nor texted me asking to stop. He could have blocked my email address but chose not to. And when you took my letter from him he asked you and then he asked Daniel what was in the letter. It’s obvious that he does want to receive my communications.
The only people Pedro needs protection from are you and his mother. And I say this not as a joke, I say this seriously.
As the result of your nasty, despicable, slimy, vile attack on our love Pedro put at least 4 fresh cuts on his left arm the next day. Daniel said that Pedro had never cut himself that much at one time before. It’s a good thing he didn’t go all the way.
You are responsible for Pedro’s wounds and you would have been responsible for his death had he gone a little further.
You take a paycheck every week but you are not at Willard to help anybody. All you want to do is punish the world for all the abuse that ever happened to you – that you never dealt with.
You need to be fired before you drive someone all the way to suicide.
Daniel told me that literally every single kid hates school. I asked him why. I asked him who makes the students miserable. He said that short of a couple of teachers who are not nice, you are by far the main reason why everyone hates school.
I came to school after a long break to submit Daniel’s vaccination exemption. I saw a number of students hanging out outside. I was really disturbed by how utterly miserable and how broken the students looked. I am a therapist and I work with teenagers a lot. I can see a lot of things that may go unnoticed by most people. It was clear that there is something terribly wrong.
In my country Russia we had so much more freedom and so much more respect from the school staff than your students do.
Willard Prison Complex puts communist Russia to shame, that’s how much worse it is at your school than it was in Russia under communism.
We were allowed to leave the classroom and the school grounds at any time. We never had to go through the humiliation of begging for a bathroom break. We were allowed to sit with whomever we wanted starting at the age of 10. Our teachers never ever read our personal letters. We passed notes to each other in class all the time. Sometimes the teacher would intercept them. The notes were placed on the teacher’s desk (without being read) and at the end of the class the students were able to get them back. And we also got an education that was astronomically better than anything that you give your students. The kind of homework Daniel did in 7th grade was the level of our 2nd grade, may be not in all the subjects, but in many, and I am not even exaggerating. Science classes in American schools are the biggest joke and nothing short of a disgrace. Daniel was offended by what was taught in his science class this past month. And it’s not necessarily Ms Lenz’s fault, it’s how America dumbs down its population.
I still stand by every word I said in the above paragraph. It’s all true. I just want to clarify that I don’t believe that the Russian people are superior to the American people. I believe that there is a lot we could learn from each other.
I came to America over 30 years ago seeking greater freedom. I found that in some ways there was more freedom here and in other ways there was not. America is definitely not “The land of the free” that so many Americans want to blindly believe it to be. I feel that this blindness has led to mass scale proliferation of fascism that I have witnessed in America since I came here.
When I was growing up in communist Russia the majority of the population honestly believed that Russia was the freest and the most prosperous country in the world. We were also taught that we were the greatest nation in the world, just like you are taught in America.
I remember staying at a youth hostel, I believe, in Boston, when I was 19 years old. I really enjoyed youth hostels. It was so fun, so liberating and so inspiring to meet people from all over the world. We had exciting conversations and debates, sometimes all night long.
One time a young man from India told us that he was taught in school that India was superior to the rest of the world and then everyone else who was participating in the conversation expressed that they were also taught that their nation was superior – and we were all from different countries. It was such an important wake up call for me!
As far as the “Dumbing down of the population” is concerned, I have heard many times and believed to be true that education in America is deliberately sabotaged. The more educated people are, the harder it is to brainwash and control them. People who understand science, for instance, are a lot less likely to consume toxic food and a lot more likely to protest against corporations that pollute the environment.
The tragic lack of education in America really angers, but also really saddens me, especially now when my own children are being directly affected by it.
I really want this to change. I applaud the Khan academy. And I applaud the internet, of course. The internet was born in America. I applaud the freedom of expression that is so cherished by the American people. Without that freedom the internet could have never been born.
And now back to my letter to Mr Albeck.
My conflict with you started when you tried to shame, demonize and ostracize Daniel for making a sexual gesture to his friend who laughed about it. You were accusing him of sexual harassment, which shows how utterly stupid and ignorant you are. It is clear that you have never even read the definition of sexual harassment.
The other day you attacked Marcel for making a sexual gesture to Daniel. Daniel defended Marcel and you started raging at Daniel.
What is your problem exactly? Just don’t tell me that you didn’t have sexual desires when you were 14.
What right do you have to instill body shame and sexual shame in young people? It’s this kind of attitude that makes it impossible for children to report real sexual abuse. In most cases children are afraid to report sexual abuse out of shame.
I still feel the same way about the above 4 paragraphs.
I bet a million bucks that you are a lousy lover. I bet you your sex life is a joke. I bet your marriage is also a joke because without intimacy there is no real companionship. I bet you are a shitty father and would not be surprised if you did inappropriate things to your own kids. It’s a well known fact that the most likely people to be sexual predators are the prudes that are riddled with shame.
I really want to apologize for the above paragraph to the general audience, not necessarily to Mr Albeck.
In the case of Mr Albeck, what I am trying to say is that Mr Albeck needs to heal and liberate himself from his own darkness, from his own shame, from his own imprisoning beliefs instead of oppressing young people and dumping his shame on them. He really has no right to destroy our children’s sexuality, our children’s freedom of expression, our children’s desire and ability to communicate and enjoy life together.
Based on my experience with Mr Albeck, I can’t imagine him having a healthy marriage nor a healthy family life. He really needs to face and heal from his own darkness instead of destroying our children and polluting them with his shame.
I do want to apologize to the general audience for the latest paragraph of my letter because it can be easily misinterpreted and misunderstood. When I said “I bet you are a lousy lover. I bet you’re sex life is a joke.” what I meant was that Mr Albeck’s own imprisoning beliefs and sexual inhibitions are not benign; they are destroying his life and would destroy his students’ lives if he were to prevail in his sexual oppression of his students.
As far as the general audience is concerned, I want to clarify a few things. When I said “I bet you are a lousy lover.” I wasn’t talking about sexual performance. I was talking about the ability to openly communicate, to openly express love, to openly give and receive pleasure that is at the core of healthy love making. These abilities can be achieved through emotional liberation. We are all born with those abilities. They are later destroyed by childhood trauma and by social conditioning.
Regardless of their origin, bedroom skills do not define us as human beings. Those skills can be learned and are good to have but not having them does not by any means diminish who we are as human beings.
In our hypocritical society we are constantly shamed for our sexuality. Yet at the same time we are treated like sex objects and judged accordingly.
Women are expected to have “perfect” bodies – “perfect” meaning sexually appealing, not meaning healthy nor strong.
Men are not judged as harshly based on their looks, but are mercilessly judged based on their size and sexual performance and endurance.
In my letter to Mr Albeck I wasn’t trying to make judgments of that nature. I’m really sorry for hurting people’s feelings if they perceived my words as those kinds of judgments. I’m deeply sorry for adding to the pain that most people in our society already feel because of such judgments.
I also want to apologize to the general audience for what may appear to be a judgment about the quality of someone’s marriage. “I bet your marriage is a joke” was directed at Mr Albeck For reasons described above.
I do not judge people for having a disappointing marriage. Neither am I in a position to make such judgment. I myself have never had a healthy romantic relationship and have never been married in any real way. In my entire life I have only met a few couples who seem to be happily married. I know it’s not easy.
On top of it all, I was told that you, Mr Albeck, always intrude in student’s personal lives. I was told by Daniel that you would totally go and intercept any letter anyone had and read it. I can’t believe how disgusting you are. In my country people who read other people’s private mail are considered such socially unacceptable low life scumbags that no one wants to have anything to do with them.
I would replace “I can’t believe how disgusting you are.” with “I can’t believe how disgusting your actions are.” I would also delete the “lowlife scumbag”. No one is inherently bad. People act in subhuman ways, not because they are subhuman, but because of the shame and the pain that were inflicted upon them that caused them to become disconnected from their true selves.
In Russia we had 15 to 20 minute breaks between all the classes. We had plenty of time to socialize, play, rest and be ourselves.
At Willard the only time students can socialize and relax is the lunch break. And that’s where you come in and start spying on students, looking for someone to humiliate, oppress, degrade. No one can feel free at Willard, not for a minute thanks to YOU.
You caught a student who was smoking weed and made her life hell. You know full well that weed is a medicine. She was doing it to help her with anxiety. If she was over 18 she would have been able to get a medical card in the past (before weed was legalized for recreational use) and it would have been legal for her to use this wonderful medicine. But you go around exploiting bad laws to do as much harm as you can to the children.
I bet you there are a ton of students at Willard who are on psyche meds. Some of those psyche meds are known to be 50 times stronger than heroin. They annihilate people’e mental, emotional and physical health. But I bet you – you have no problem with that.
What good can any of you teach our children when you choose to uphold fascism, when you hide the truth, or openly lie, manipulate and oppress? And your excuse? You want that paycheck, right? The time has come to take a serious look in the mirror.
In this last paragraph I want to apologize for throwing all the Willard School teachers under the bus. Daniel loved most of his teachers at Willard. Unfortunately, I didn’t get to meet them. Daniel said that only a couple of teachers were disrespectful and oppressive at Willard. The last paragraph should have been addressed to Mr Albeck and to the oppressive teachers. I apologize to all the teachers and staff at Willard who do not uphold fascism.
I bet you say you don’t like Trump. But how are you any different from Trump? If all you do all day is hide the truth or lie, manipulate and oppress. That’s what Trump does. In reality Trump is a perfect, crystal clear representation of the choices that mainstream Americans make every day. In Russia we had a great saying: “Every nation deserves its tyrant.”
While it is important for all of us to look in the mirror and to ask ourselves how we created the reality of Trump being our president, the last paragraph should have been directed at Mr Albeck and other oppressors, and not at the good teachers.
I want to apologize to all the American people for saying that they deserve Trump. I strongly believe deep in my heart that no one deserves to suffer no matter what they have done. I have been wanting to make and distribute bumper stickers that say: “No one deserves to suffer”.
The Russian saying that “Every nation deserves its tyrant” was an important idea for the Russian people to consider at the time when I was growing up there. When I was a teen, most of the people were complacent, did absolutely nothing to contribute to positive change and didn’t even complain about communism until the late 80s. My father was the one who used that saying. The apathy of the Russian people angered him which was perfectly understandable. I shared his anger and frustration full heartedly.
However, my father was a punisher. He didn’t have much compassion. He was out of touch with his true self. He made my life hell. I should have long since re-examined and abolished this saying that he taught me that “Every Nation deserves its tyrants.”
In reference to the American people I want to say that they really showed the world that Trump does not represent them. I was so proud of the American people for protesting relentlessly against Trump from the day he stole the elections.
It was so deeply moving and so profoundly beautiful to see Americans of all walks of life stepping up to the plate and rising up against fascism. From drug addicted homeless people all the way to Nancy Pelosi, and everywhere in between, the American people united against Trump and overthrew him. Despite the tremendous political power of the shadow government that was using Trump as their puppet president, Trump was triumphally overthrown, destroyed, and defeated by the American people. He was the most unpopular American president in history – which says a lot about the American people. The rest of the world applauded America. The whole planet was inspired.
I want you all to think about that and ask yourselves how you personally contributed to the tyranny that is being waged on America today. How honest are you with yourself? Do you act out of love or out of fear? Are you a freedom fighter or are you a cog in the wheel of fascism? What is your personal impact on the young people who have no choice but spend a lot of their time with you? Because if you are not a part of the solution you are a part of the problem.
The above paragraph starts with important questions that all of us need to ask ourselves. That includes me, of course. I have been living in America for over 30 years. I am certainly just as responsible as any other American for what is happening in this country.
I want to apologize for saying that if you’re not a freedom fighter you are a “Cog in the wheel of fascism.” We all certainly need to stop contributing to oppression. We all need to become more conscious of our impact on our world. We all need to stop playing powerless. We all need to take our power back, to stand up for what we believe in and to make a change. However, just because someone did not label themselves as a “freedom fighter” doesn’t mean that they are a fascist. In the statement: “If you are not a part of the solution you are a part of the problem” is a very one-sided, very judgmental statement. All of us contribute to a positive future when we act in loving ways. Besides that, we are constantly growing and changing. Our past mistakes do not preclude us from creating a positive future. We are all human. We all make mistakes. It’s part of the human condition. Everyone of us is a spark of God. We are all in the process of coming home: Back to the divine source that we all came from. We are all equally loved by God. We are all going to achieve enlightenment in one lifetime or another. We are all going to make it.
And finally, I want to ask Mr Albeck a question.
I know that by law you have to report abuse. I know that by law you are strictly required to notify authorities whenever someone reports abuse to you.
I told you a week ago that Pedro’s mother tortured our puppy and I told you that Pedro cuts himself. Did you report the abuse that I made you aware of?
I bet you didn’t. When Daniel told me about Phoenx’s 4 fresh cuts I called the police. They came and they said they were completely unaware of Pedro cutting himself even though that specific officer knew all about our case with Pedro’s mother.
So you didn’t make a report about Pedro’s mother allegedly torturing puppies and about Pedro cutting himself in her custody?
You deserve to be fired. In fact, the only morally right thing to happen would be getting you fired. Debbie Dean should step in and fire your ass. If she doesn’t then the whole school is rotten to the core. We will have to go to higher levels to expose your criminal behavior towards students, how you don’t report suicide attempts, and instead look for ways to humiliate and break our children.
I want to apologize to the school principal Debbie Dean and to the rest of the school for saying that the school is rotten to the core if Albeck doesn’t get fired. I have never discussed Mr Albeck’s behavior with Debbie Dean. I don’t know how she feels about it. I don’t know what she had the authority to do. The rest of the teachers probably have very little say in this matter. Neither have I ever discussed it with them. Daniel told me that Debbie Dean always tried to limit Albeck’s negative impact on the students. If I had the authority to expose Albeck I would do that and I would certainly fire him. But unfortunately he is the principal of the school now.
I certainly stand by my words about Albeck not reporting suicide attempts and instead looking for ways to humiliate and break our children.
I have been making TV series for Public Access in Berkeley and San Francisco for a good 16 years. You have probable seen some of my shows without knowing they were produced by me. I have been a media activist for a long time too. Google my name: Gypsy Taub. You will see news media reports about my activism in nearly every big national and many international publications: San Francisco Chronicle, SF Weekly, New York Times, Newseek, The Guardian (in England), and many many more, BBC radio, every possible local TV channel and even Fox news. Our story trended on Yahoo news as one of the top 5 stories in the nation. Sundance channel filmed a whole episode about my activism. There are numerous documentaries in the US and Europe made about my activism. The list goes on and on.
The above paragraph is just pure bragging and negative ego, it is irrelevant.
I will make sure that Mr Albeck is exposed for his criminal negligence and his nasty abusive attitude towards students.
And finally, for those of you who want to know the truth I am attaching my letter that I wrote to Pedro in an attempt to prevent him from going off the deep end in the midst of his mother’s insane which hunt on our love.
You, Mr Albeck, your school, Willard Prison Complex, and the police – you all are treating me like a criminal, like a high level terrorist – and for what? For loving a suicidal teenagers and helping him heal.
I will attach my letter. Please keep it to yourselves, I don’t want students to tease Pedro, he doesn’t need any more cuts on his wrists.
I am also going to attach the healing bundle that I made for Pedro about a month ago and emailed it to him. Success bundle technique is a magical ritual. You cut out newspaper and magazine images and words and put them together in a bundle. Then you do 3 different meditations over the course of a week, the bundle is later burned. It’s one of the most powerful techniques that I have ever discovered. The image is attached.
And please listen to this amazingly beautiful song by Muse (called Uprising) It has 168 million views – so this change is coming and unfolding in a huge way. And if you continue upholding fascism we are going to come after you!
“Uprising” is an amazing song. I encourage everyone to listen to it.
The last statement “If you continue upholding fascism we are going to come after you” is not something I believe anymore. To illustrate what I do believe I’m going to post my personal revelations that I wrote in jail about 18 months ago:
It’s not about the good guys (us) winning over the bad guys (them). It’s about us waking up to our own personal power. It’s about realizing: “It was me who has been creating this reality all along. It is me who is fully in charge, and it is me who is going to heal and transform myself, and my entire reality with the help of higher power.” This is the key to personal and global transformation. This is what will heal our world.
here are some of my recent thoughts:
All the loving and beautiful things that we do come from our true selves .
All the unloving and destructive things that we do come from being disconnected from our true selves.
Here are my ideas for bumper stickers:
- You can only be as kind to others as you are to yourself.
- Hate is always blind.
- “Everyone deserves another chance” – George Floyd
- No one deserves to suffer .
- Everyone deserves to be loved .
- Seek the highest truth.
- You are a spark of God.
- You are beautiful
You are Loved